When I was an undergrad, I toyed with becoming a theater historian. I idolized my theater history professor and thought it would be great to be just.like.her. She told me, in no uncertain terms, to NOT become a theater historian. We had many conversations about how it would be a bad career move for me and because I idolized her, I listened. But I have such a respect for theater history, especially American theater history. When I got my job at the Guild, part of the reason I was so excited about it was that I would get to meet so many great writers! The board at the Guild was filled with my heroes! Ask me to do my reader's theater version of the day I met Michael John LaChiusa. Or see if I can remember the song I wrote with Adolph Green. Anyway, the past few months have been tough--we've been losing so many wonderful writers, and wonderful people. It seems selfish to be sad, since their work will live on, but I'm sad nonetheless. It made me feel such a part of the history I love when I chatted with these heroes.
But I never really became friends with any of them, or did readings with any of them. I did with Doric Wilson. My heart is broken that he is gone. It does seem a blessing that he went in his sleep, but I can't wrap my brain around the fact that he's won't be at Zuni anymore. The way he LOVED my friends and their work brought me so much happiness. As did he. I'll miss him.
Changing the subject: to really be trivial, what am I going to do about tennis?!?!?! Ugh, I can't watch! I DO NOT LIKE Novak Djokovic! And he keeps winning and winning. Plus, he keeps playing Nadal in finals! I don't love Nadal, either! Wah! Am I going to have to take up watching water polo or something??? Ew. I was just talking to someone in the office about this--he watches tennis because he likes the storylines over the personalities, so he likes the whole Djokovic thing. I will admit that it is a compelling story. But I watch tennis because I like personalities over storylines and since Djokovic is one of the personalities I DON'T like, it brings my tennis enjoyment way down. I hold a grudge. It's my worst fault. And Djokovic made me dislike him a few years ago and I've kept right on disliking him. It's as if Paul Giamatti is in every movie that ever opens. I'm just really unhappy and hope this winning streak stops really soon. I just can't bring myself to imagine Djokovic winning the French and/or Wimbledon. It's not so much that Roger isn't winning (though I find that annoying too--I think it's time for Mirka to smack him upside the head and remind him that he's ROGER Freaking FEDERER), but that Djokovic is beating everyone. Yuck. Whew. There. I got that off my chest.
More minutiae: Sunday is the AIDS Walk. I've been walking for twelve straight years. I will start the Walk on Sunday, but I'm not sure if I'll finish. Although, as my cute cardiologist reminds me, they didn't operate on my legs, I get extremely uncomfortable walking for long distances. I start to swell up and my expanders start to travel. But I will give it the old college try and start. I'm trying to decide, though, what to do in the future. I feel like I should do the Walk for the Cure and raise money for breast cancer research. Even though I don't really think of myself as a 'survivor,' I'm sure monies raised in these walks have gone towards research that benefitted me in some way. But I have such a loyalty to GMHC. I know I can do both, since one is in the spring and one is in the fall, but my fundraising pool is minimal. I can't ask people to contribute to two things a year. Should I split my lists? Gah, I don't know. I'm struggling with how to handle it. Any ideas would be appreciated.
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